note to self

Talking about law school is a bad habit. I hate doing it, and yet I find that I do it without even thinking.  Still, a bad habit can be a useful thing to observe.  I think that the reason why I keep talking about law school, two years out, is that I spent three years of my life doing something immensely challenging, and then one day I just up and said no to it all. That part of me that said yes yes yes for all that time still wants me to do something law-y.

What I know I have to do is this - keep telling that part of myself to please SHUT THE FUCK UP. First of all, law-y is a made up word, and it just goes to show how imaginary the idea is that I'm trying to convey. If I'm not a lawyer, then that's it. You can't be "lawyer-ish."  Saying that I want to do something law-y just means I want to have money, power, stability - all that shit that everybody likes. The part of myself that's saying, "Hey, you stop dicking around, don't forget to do something law-y," is really saying "Hey, I want to be really, really successful, so you better do something blue-chip and EXCELLENT."

And my response is, "I'll get there. And also, never ever blog the phrase 'I love my lawyer friends.'"